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It’s been a long time since I’ve had a chance to just sit down and create purely for the sake of creating–just for joy, just for me . . . I am beginning to realize just how integral that is to my *spirit*.  Family and work commitments have left me little time to indulge in creating something just for the halibut. (<–I’m not gonna spell it out, but you *know* what that means)

Since yesterday, I have been delightfully, slowly, deliciously "immersed" in a project.  It is outside my comfort zone.  It is different.  It is not "me" in terms of style, but, I think it still says "me". . .  I plan to share it in the December Dirty Dozen Gallery.  I don’t plan to keep it for me.  It’s a very instant gratification project, but, I am not hurrying.  I am deliberately spreading out the gratification.  Shocking, eh?! *chuckle*   I think I will gift it to my daughter when it is complete . . .

It is making me *giddy*.  It is the voice of the muse inside, reminding me what I love about being creative, and that all work and no play is not good for the soul.  OK, *my* soul.

I had to stop in the late afternoon, while working on this project, to go experience more joy . . . of the motherly type . . . I sat and watched Hayley play her first game of her last season as a high school basketball player . . . her first game since she blew out her ACL a year ago.  The refs examined the (ouchy mama expensive) high-tech brace that she had pleaded for, when the surgeon had suggested such a brace might give her greater emotional confidence, to make sure that it was properly taped up . . . and, she laid it down on the bench, choosing not to wear it.  It gets in her way, she said . . .

So, I sat there, holding my breath, knuckles white . . . as she ran, and jumped, and dove, and hustled her heart out . . . with ease . . . without injury . . . a smile on her face the size of Kansas. 

They lost the game.  But, it really didn’t seem to bother Hayley that much . . .

Joy . . .

14 Comments
  1. Hi Julie, My daughter had ACL surgery in October and she is rehabbing in anticipation of her spring soccer season. This will be her last high school season too, so I can imagine going through all of the emotions you did for her first game. Good luck, and I can’t wait to see your creation. — Krista

  2. That is awesome! I’m so glad she is playing…thank goodness it’s all healed up and good as new! Now, for the motherly “I hope this doesn’t happen to the other knee thing”…good luck with that! I’ve been thru those surgeries with my boys, and I think it’s as hard on us as it is them! Moms go thru a lot…Have a wonderful weekend, and I hope they win the next game!
    :)

  3. Julie, I know what you mean when you talk about feeding your spirit. I can’t wait to see your creation. Sometimes the most inspired things are those outside our comfort level. I’m glad you found some time for yourself.

    But this sounds familiar . . my daughter HAD to have a new Halloween costume this year, and my last $20 was in my wallet. After asking many many times, ‘are you SURE you really need this??’ I bought it, and what do you know, she never wore it!!! Oi!!

  4. So glad you were able to create something just for you, and not for a deadline. ;)

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